Taking A Small Step Forward

It's been nearly a year since my life changed forever. I split up with the man who I thought was the love of my life, the one I'd be with always and that changed everything. I went through every emotion that one human being could have, I think I even experienced some that are new and radical because no one knew what to do with me for a time. I spent the better part of the year perfectly my fetal position pose until I realized it isn't part of the sun salutation. Dang! I am a pro at that pose. I cried more tears than I have in my whole life combined, I probably could have watered crops for a season with all those tears. Now I have found my footing and am attempting to take another step forward. I've been in limbo for a year and now I am ready to break out into the sunlight and grow.

I've learned a lot in the past year. I've learned the difference between being alone and quality time with oneself. At one time I would have scoffed at someone who told me I needed to learn that, and I have scoffed at them for saying that. Now I realize exactly what they were talking about. You can be alone, just to be alone without doing yourself any good. Just existing isn't living, it's merely being alive. Quality time with oneself allows you to see the real person you are, look at your reflection in the mirror and start accepting the flaws that create you're uniqueness that allow you to be different from everyone else. Accept the things you can't change and start changing the things you can.

We all have parts of ourselves we do not like, we've all done things we're not proud of, but at the end of the day you need to see yourself as the real person you are and be happy with that individual. We're not perfect, and in our imperfections we are fabulous, unique and interesting.

While I may not love myself wholly yet, and of course there are things I would indeed like to change and have started working on those things that need to be improved upon, I can say that at the core of it all I am a good person and that is a solid foundation with which to build upon.