Beauty

What is beauty? How do we determine what is beautiful, isn't it an individual notion. What I deem lovely couldn't have the opposite reaction to someone else. So why does society put a standard out there for us to follow when not all of us believe that is what it means to be beautiful.
Of course I'd love to be tall, slender with legs that go on for an eternity, with long flowing locks of hair that drive men wild but I wasn't part of that genetic pool. I am not dwelling on what I don't have genetics wise, I am proud of who I am and where I come from. I may not be the next Top Model but I a totally ok with that, seriously don't want to be a spectacle for the masses. I have enough problems not being a spaz in my normal life, putting me in front of a camera would just be insanity.

I am come from good stock, great big heart with room to love many people for my lifetime, intelligent enough to know how to jaywalk properly and kind enough to give people second chances whenever possible. I believe people enter our lives for various reasons at times when we really need them and some stay forever and some don't but everyone one of them leaves an imprint on our hearts. It's how we choose to deal with that imprint that shapes us and creates remarkable beauty. Who we are is not determined by how we look, how we look is determined by who we are inside. We project what people want us to see. I am a true believer (now) to really be honest with oneself and be true to you. If you love yourself, then there is no reason others will not love you too.
I struggle with my self esteem, my looks, loving myself on a daily basis. I am getting better but I still am not totally comfortable in my own skin, I wonder if we ever end up there. To that end, I am going to work towards being at peace with myself and try and find one thing good about myself, my looks, my being each and every day and may be just may be one day I'll find that zen state where I can finally say I am happy with everything about myself and be at peace.